Fear not; for I am with you: be not dismayed; for I am your God: I will strengthen you; yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. -Isaiah 41:10
I chanced upon this verse and as I was reading it, I felt so much of God’s love on me. It reminded me and also showed me how much and how involved God was in my life since I was a little kid. In all circumstances, He was there protecting and guiding me. No matter how small it was, God was always there.
I remember back then when I was in primary school, there was a very cool looking water bottle that looks like a soft drinks can that all my friends whose fathers drove had, and I really wanted it too. Then I found out that this water bottle can only be gotten as a free gift after pumping petrol at the Shell Petrol Station. This made me feel really sad as my parents did not drive, which meant that there was no way of me being able to get my hands on one of these cool bottles. I shared this with my father and he told me that maybe I can pray for it and watch how God will come through for me. So I did. True enough, two weeks later, one of my parents’ good friend saw me in church and exclaimed “Eugene! I have a very unique looking water bottle that I want to give to you!” to my joy and zip-a-dee-doo-dah, I ran up to him and saw that it was the bottle that I have been praying for! When I showed my dad, he too was shocked. That was the very first time, as far as I could remember, that I experienced God’s hand as I prayed.
Another event that I would never forget was when I was entering into a secondary school. Due to my results of PSLE not being very good, I was sent to Broadrick Secondary – An unknown school to me that would take me an hour and a half to get to every morning. This meant that I would have to wake up at 5am every morning. However I wanted to get into St. Hilda’s Secondary! It was just 15 minutes walk away from home and it was the best school in my neighborhood. Then I got to praying. Every night before sleeping I would say this prayer to God “God please let me get into St. Hilda’s Secondary School. In Jesus’ name, Amen!” Not a very awesome prayer, but I truly meant it. This went on all the way till the first week of the school semester. Though it seemed like St. Hilda’s was but a dream, I decided to keep praying. Then, once more, God moved. On the Friday of the first week of school, my parents showed up half way through my lesson in Broadrick Secondary and told me that St. Hilda’s had an opening and that I had to go there now to complete the application. There, the St. Hilda’s VP said to me that for some reason, the moment the school had a vacant spot, the first student that came to her mind to fill up that vacancy was me. I thought to myself “WOW! Out of the hundreds of appeal applicants, and my name came up! It is definitely God!” I was overjoyed and whispered “thank you God thank you God thank you God.”
The next major thing that God moved in my life despite my circumstances were when I was in Army. My greatest fear entering into the Army wasn’t the push ups that I was gonna kena or the laps I would be made to run. It was the stay-in. I really did not want a post that I would have no choice but to stay in from Mondays to Fridays for the next two years of my life. I did not want to miss out on all the events that church had planned out. I also wanted to be available, that whenever my ministries or church leaders needed me, I could be around to help. So I prayed and prayed. I can still remember…it was my first day in Tekong that I prayed to God asking Him for direction. Then I heard from God so clearly “Trust me for I am Your God. All your officers’ and sergeants’ authority is given by Me!”. I felt the presence of God so strongly that night and I just knew that the next two years of my life in the SAF, God has my back. True enough, on the day that I was to get my posting, I got an 8-5 job! I got to go home every day! Throughout that two years, even in my posting, I encountered God over and over. So many times I thought I was going to be in trouble or things happened that might seem that my platoon and me being charged was inevitable, God moved time and time again. The most awesome thing was that throughout my entire army life, I never once did a single guard duty! This was the period where I felt closest and most intimate with God.
There are just so many experiences that God has gone through with me in my life so far, and I believe that all these are not for nothing, that God is slowly showing me that He is God and with Him I will never have to fear anything.
Right now as I am beginning on a new phase of life of working and also starting a new family with Grace, I believe the challenges that are to come will be far more challenging than what I have overcame before. But through the experiences that I have gone through with God since my youth, I know that no matter the size of my problems, my God is greater still! I have a God that loves me and is for me. As what Pastor How preached last weekend in Heart of God Church, the greatness of our God is that He can, the goodness of our God is that He will.
I just want to share this song, The Greatness of Our God, that has always brought me to tears as I worship with it. Every time as I sing this song, all these memories of how great God is and more just comes flooding in.
No matter what comes along in my life, I will always know, that my God is greater still!